“I love making people feel good, but after Matthew died, I couldn't imagine how I was going to do that again. It didn't feel possible."

"I've had to forgive myself for that, because I’m someone who wants to be the best at everything."

"I love my connection to my tattoos. And it's the one tattoo that I know my grandmother would not kill me for.”

"Two days later, Matthew passed. And I knew I wanted to get a tattoo in his honor."

“I do believe in a higher power. But one of the worst things people with faith can say to someone who's grieving is ‘He's in a better place'

"I think underneath, I fear feeling sad all the time."

“I am learning to forgive myself for not being perfect at grieving. And to forgive myself for not knowing what I needed."

“When you're grieving like this, you feel like there's no end in sight. You feel like you're going to start crying and you’ll never stop."

"I remember thinking, ‘How do these people not know that the best little person in the world isn't here anymore?’

"God, please help me get a hold of myself because I'm my own worst enemy. I can destroy everything in front of me just by being angry."

“It's always everyone else before me. It's pouring and pouring into into my mom, kids, clients, partner. I never pour into myself."

Heart health is an issue in Bonnie's family, and now it's her turn.