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“I love making people feel good, but after Matthew died, I couldn't imagine how I was going to do that again. It didn't feel possible."

Oct 3, 20241 min read

"I've had to forgive myself for that, because I’m someone who wants to be the best at everything."

Oct 2, 20241 min read

"I love my connection to my tattoos. And it's the one tattoo that I know my grandmother would not kill me for.”

Oct 1, 20242 min read

"Two days later, Matthew passed. And I knew I wanted to get a tattoo in his honor."

Sep 30, 20242 min read

“I do believe in a higher power. But one of the worst things people with faith can say to someone who's grieving is ‘He's in a better place'

Sep 29, 20242 min read

"I think underneath, I fear feeling sad all the time."

Sep 28, 20241 min read

“I am learning to forgive myself for not being perfect at grieving. And to forgive myself for not knowing what I needed."

Sep 27, 20241 min read

“When you're grieving like this, you feel like there's no end in sight. You feel like you're going to start crying and you’ll never stop."

Sep 26, 20241 min read

"I remember thinking, ‘How do these people not know that the best little person in the world isn't here anymore?’

Sep 25, 20242 min read

"I had this preconceived notion that I was going to do grief really, really, well. That I was going to be The Best Griever."

Sep 24, 20242 min read