“It saddens me that at 20 years old, I know more pain than happiness. I know more pain than some adults have known in their entire lives.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of trauma since a young age. And I want to work through it before I get older and have to deal with real world stuff.
I want to promise myself that I’ll get to a place where I am happy – because I'm exhausted from being in this space of pain.
I get super emotional on my birthdays. For some people, their birthday is the happiest day for them. For me, it's one of the most depressing days. Because I reflect back on my life.
All the trauma I’ve experienced – I see, hear and feel it on my birthday. Every year. And last year, on my 20th birthday, I was tired of feeling depressed. I was like, I have to fix these issues.”